TBL: Contestant (The Biggest Loser: Ultimate Workout)

I had such a nice day today. Now that these daily status logs have essentially become "how bad or good of a day did Evan have" or "inside the wild rollercoaster mind of a Major Depressive" I can honestly say that today stood out as a very nice day. I went to bed last night stressed out as shit. I didn't sleep well. I tried to relax and calm myself down through deep breathing and melatonin but I still had a hard time falling asleep. I woke up irritated and certain that the sleep deprivation was going to make my day fall apart around 1PM in a state of intense depression. That's what typically happened. But today the opposite happened, which is occasionally the case when I chance upon the exact combination of sleep deprivation that eliminates anxiety without also causing intense moodswings. I was extremely busy all day at work, felt at times like everything was falling apart, spent hours puzzling over complex problems without feeling like I made much headway, but I also overwhelmingly felt like none of the problems were a matter of life or death. I felt like all problems were surmountable and had a relentlessly positive outlook that lasted throughout the day. Even going into this late evening, I feel wonderful. It's like all my anxiety is just not there anymore. I wish I could hang on to this moment. I wish I could just make this feeling last and not have to fight so hard through the clouds of anxiety and depression. Is this how a normal person feels, or do most of us trudge through intense pain moment to moment, carrying boulders uphill day after day and falling asleep with the weight of the world perched over our shoulders.